♥ new life...college life... ♥

about my new college life :)

first day of college? yeah, i remember it perfectly!..in fact, it felt like it was just yesterday...i left high school and now PTPL College was the one. 

waking up at 6am on my first day was not easy..but for the past few weeks, waking up at 9am was the norm...kadang2 pandai late juga wake up :P haha..as soon as i step on college ground, i knew this was it...making friends, hanging out and checking out new lectures...after two months, i knew i would enjoy my diploma life...staying up late nights and trying to finish last minute assignments..oh na na..hehe..but even the assignments give are hell a lot..hmmm..well that's college right :)

WOOT! :D! college life is new to me..im kinda nervous on the first day of lecture class..about the lectures some are nice some are fun some are boring some are blah..blah..blah...as for my intake classmates.. they are pretty nice and i love 'em so much ! :) i love my DPL intake june...they are so nice, sporting, caring and much more....the first week was introduction week,we had to introduce ourselves to the class...as each individual share a little something about themselves i learnt that we are all creative in our own ways..and we are all here to activate that creativity to achieve the best from it from there i made new friends...some share the same passion and some differently..but it's cool,our differences of interest are simply another thing that makes life more unique...yohooo ! :D and here it's not the same as high school..as you know the freedom of not having to wear uniforms anymore...we can now wear whatever we want according to our own style cause no one's going to scold you....wuhuuu...one things i love to be here is about the lecturers here are friendly...they make loads of jokes and you can see that they just want to help us enjoy our time here studying in PTPL COLLEGE..…well,im pretty much enjoying my life in college,and im glad that i will be enjoying it in ptpl college sabah...

well enough said...so thats all i can write about thoughts of my new college life...peace out! ♥

♥ in loving memory of my grandpa :'( ♥

In loving memory of my late grandpa :'( always in my heart ♥

30th august 1934 - 15th august 2012...i didnt get a chance to see you that day pa...after i received an emergency call from daddy and told me that pa is now in critical condition...daddy come to kk and fetch me and when im on my way to tenom with daddy and sister, i really wish that i could see and talk to pa for the last time..but then no :'( ..so sorry pa...i cant even see and talk to you for the last time pa ! and when i arrived there i was like *speechless* hanya mampu menangis melihat my grandpa body lying on the bed before kena ksih pindah to coffin..pa I MISS YOU !! :'( so hard for me to accept it pa...there's s much hurt i feel inside pa..until now still belum dapat terima...crying all day all night thinking of you pa.. :'( miss you ! u're in our hearts..and be remembered everyday.... thank you pa for the beautiful memories,for all the laughter,for all the motivation,for everything and for always being there for us...love you always...♥

after so long didnt update my blog :')

hello guys :) sorry for taking so long to update my blog..because i forgot my password..but finally i got my password back and get into my blog :) so from now on i will always be updated my blog...if im not busy la haaa :) sekarang ni always busy with my college life...everyday ada class..spent a day in college with my friends :) but this month holiday juga hope so dapat update my blog ok :) see yeahh ♥

♥ Class Farewell Party :') ♥

CLASS FAREWELL PARTY on 9th Dec 2011 :')

Today we said goodbye and spoke our final words we gave our last hugs  and cried afterwards...we promised to keep in touch and to never forget the times we laughed and we played but as we pursue our own dreams we will most likely grow apart never talk again and leave eachothers hearts and even though we might not ever see each other face to face or talk ever again we wanted to thank you each other
for have been being best friends for about 2 years :) it's time for us to say goodbye because our year has come to an end..w've made more cherished memories...hope that all the things we've done have helped in some small way.. :)

In 2010 at the beginning of January we came into our class, how well i remember...some of us were smiling and giggling a lot and some of us were very quiet and a few tears i could spot..and now we've made a big family.. :) we've learned a lot together and we'll say goodbye its time for us to part..but we'll remember all our friends and keep 'em in our hearts :')

Miss you my dear friends a.k.a dear 5 Rasional class of 2011/4 Rasional class of 2010...Let me say a few words before we all move on.. i want to thank you for this wonderful 2 years it will be a year i will never forget..i know lots of you will do great things with your talent..some of us don’t want to leave we all want to go back to the very first day :'( but…we all have to move on with our lives..most of you i shall see next year and little of you i won’t.. :') have a great year next year..im so happy that our years ended with hugs and tears and that day was hurtful and to me it will be a day i shall never forget…let me say once more…Thank you 4 Rasional/5 Rasional class of 2010- 2011 for giving me a wonderful years i won’t forget any of you…(benedict,carlon,chang,cynthia,danny,deanboy,fifiana,janevie,jennifer,jenny.jessella,kong suk yee,koh chee son,melonnie.lin fui kyun,ling,venny,viviyanti,nabila,sonn yee,vui ping,marcellus,shan ming,monica,siau,shahryll,yun,richie,pan kee yang,tsoon ming,he yen,kai peng,woon,chun khang,liau) ..LOVE YOU ALL !

Here's some photos of us on that party just now :)

Yammmmmmm.....Puiiiiiiiiii ! :)

ngee :D hahaha

we turn on the candle at night :)

L.C.K & Monica :)

sweet us !

hahaha :D

:) 

grill....

♥ Goodbye SM Ken Hwa :') ♥

I wanna say goodbye to all my fellow friends and all my teachers..It’s my time to move on cause this is real life…My high school now is done..im going into the real world and the party has just begun..Where every little thing complicates..im not in high school anymore and still, I will never forget about all my memories since when I started to step in Sm Ken Hwa 2007 until now 2011 :) No more homework left to do..We’re graduating soon..Goodbye Ken Hwa I will always remember you :’) About me leaving high school and how it was sad to see myself and others leave..we were there for five years and now, it was the time to leave..huhu..Goodbye high school..5 years you had stayed with me..and today, i have left you..the first days of high school were so interesting..we had the chance to reveal our reality to many new faces which came out of the blue..we had the audacity to make new friends like I did..it was a new story but now, this story has ended after 5 years of a journey towards maturity..our olden days have died but leaving behind..a bunch of memories but a new story shall begin..after ending the primary and high school stories, now i have come to my college story next year..meeting new faces and forgetting the old ones..making more friends and forgetting the painful horns which haunted you..the times when you were ignored and hated..all gone..before i left today, girls were crying..tears of their eyes told us that some hearts are soft..emotional talks being told to us by the head teacher..trying to get our high school love out in front of us..those teachers who have put their socks on for us have helped us in many ways to pass our success in the future..will be a miss and true..just now I remember when I wrote my very first poem called sunset..i wrote it in early of this year..it told many about the skies of colour which remind us the high school days..“Every day, every year, the sun will remind me the high school days because every student is represented in the sun’s rays..there souls are in the sky..that when you remember them, you’ll cry”..Yes! this is so very true…huhu..this is sad, remembering mood.. :)

Im going to miss my BFF soooo much :'(

( Siti Nabila Ismail . Cynthia James Stephen . Jessella Mak . Wong Shiang Yun . Fifiana Zulkifli . Kong Suk Yee . Shahryll Nazry Wan Sofian . Benedict Queck . Richie Richard Ang . Deanboy Fung . Carlon Lee . 5C batch 2011 Students )

- hennie , nabila , cynthia , jessella , yun , fifiana , suk yee , shahryll , benedict , richie , deanboy , carlon -

were going to the same high school and honestly they are my only friend… we have a made up 
language sooooo many inside jokes and im going to miss them with all my heart..whenever im 
sad in school i always run to them..they're the most beautiful flower in my garden of friendship :) 
we all have been best friends for about 2 years :) im gonna miss y'all my friends :')

♥ 11.11.11 :) spend time with classmates..3 days before SPM ! ♥

Our Day 11th Nov 2011 (11.11.11)

11.11.11 the date i enjoyed with my classmates :) it was the best day i ever had with 'em all !! :') we take a lot of  photos just now it's about 500 ++ !!..haha....here's 15 best photos from a set of 500 ++ photos :) 

♥ the end of our friendship :') ♥

after seven years...finally this is the end of our friendship :')...huhuhuh....thanks for everything "M" .....no more joy and sharing stories between us....please keep my secret with good...gonna miss u...gudluck for u ! :)


what happened to our friendship?we swore that we will be BFF till the end of the time but lately the friendship i think has been heading straight towards a flatline....huh..

yeah i know..i'm not the perfect friend sorry because i annoy you with this kind of friendship sorry i screwed it up..

i kinda sad to think about it...but...* big sigh..i'm sorry again.

yeah i know...people changed right?..it's okay now i know that it's important to realize that not all friendships last forever...

i will always love you (always remember that even ..............)

i'm here without u but u're still with me in my dream...thanks for the memories :)

chill hennie ! be strong....concentrate on ur spm...spm more important for u...32 days more !...cant wait for that day....after done my spm...yeah ! new life begin :')

i hope so u're reading this... :)

dear U..

the old us sucks and also the new one..we were one mistake for being together..i'm only gonna break your heart if we keep being friend..hard for me actually but.....i'm soooooooooo sorry..just forget me and leave me alone..i don't want to hurt u anymore..we were not meant to be together..i'm happier alone and wanna live my life without u..how'd we end up this way?i don't know what else to say...when it all broke down, the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now..u turned out to be the best thing i never had..u're in my mind for the last time and at the most, u were a past time...i wave goodbye when u say hello..what u don't know is how great it feels to let u go..u can't change what's done..u also can't go back in time..u can't try change the hurt feeling or mend the broken heart..all that u can do is learn from the past and i hope you will regret anything as much as u do now..

♥ Thailand best movie ever ! (SUCKSEED) ♥

"Suckseed" this film is the story of a friendship and love...this film comes from Thailand, starring Jirayu Laongmanee as Ped, Nattasha Nauljam as Ern, PacharaChirathivat as Koong and Thawat Pornrattanaprasert as Ex. The film lasts 130 minutes a lot of fun !

LOVE U Jirayu Laongmanee !! ♥

Nattasha Nauljam !! LOVE HER ! ♥

♥ they're the most important people in my life ♥

there are many important people in my life...these people give me inspiration; respect, help, and they keep me on the right track...these people mean the most to me...these people are my mother, my father, my sister and my faithful little brother.. 

the most important person in my life is someone who is always there for me no matter what the outcome...he is the first one there to say “good job” or to congratulate me and the first one there to talk with me and make me look at things from a new perspective when i am down on myself...surprisingly, the most important person in my life is my daddy..he is the reason i am who a am...they has helped me in every conceivable capacity, from athletics, to fixing something around the house, to understanding what the right thing to do is in any given tough situation.the moral and ethical values he has embedded in me will follow me in both sports and real life. in athletics, he has taught me never to give up no matter what..he has provided me with the mental intensity to train hard and to work harder than everyone else...i believe that no matter what the obstacle, i am capable of competi..I LOVE U DAD !  ♥

my mother is one very important person to me...she gives me the hope to go through life and make a difference..she has a great job which makes me want to overcome her greatness, and be extremely successful in my later life...my mother is not just another woman she is extraordinary...I LOVE U MOM !  ♥

the person that has loved me in a remarkable way, it would have to be my sister Henna..she has always been there for me in every way possible...she is 22..she has been my rock and my shield throughout my whole life...she makes me feel loved because she enjoys hanging out with me on the weekends, and isn’t ashamed to call me her best friend... :) I LOVE U SISTA !  ♥

my younger brother is only 10 years old and one of the most compassionate and caring people i know...more so than most adults even...he has helped me out so much through out my life and i don't think he has realized how much i truly care about him...In this next year i'm moving away for college and he told me how sad he is to see me go..his biggest worry had make me cry :') I LOVE U MY LIL BROTHER !  ♥

My family plays the biggest role in my life..they have always been there for me and always will be..if there came a time when i was down or depressed, they were always right there picking me back up. ..i truly know that i will always be able to depend on them no matter what... LOVE MY FAMILY !  ♥

"A happy family is but an earlier heaven." - George Bernard Shaw  ♥

♥ i miss my late friend "J" :'( ♥

i dreamed of my late friend last night :'( who have left us forever 1 year ago...i really miss him "J" ... 16th March 2010 <---the date that i cant ever forget..he is a brave, honest, loyal friend, hard working, trustworthy, kind, polite, not arrogant...he is my friend..friendly person...miss u "J"..may his soul rest in peace  ♥ .. OMG! tears falling on my keyboard when i was writing this :'( do u know what it feels like to be left behind? ..losing everyone around u in such little time...i try not to worry since they're left in the past but it's hard going through life.............IMYSM!

think about my future :)

huh...since i get a lot of questions related to my future plans, i’ll go ahead and share them...for people who know me well, this certainly isn’t a secret, but others may find some of it surprising..i believe that everybody has some plans for his or her future...this future may be a distant one or a short one, for example: the next day..huh...but it cannot be denied that we plan very often...the plans for the future are often connected with dreams...dreams of better life, more interesting work or happy family...whoaa :) sometimes they function as an escape from the grey reality...i very often think about my future: what will happen to me? who would i like to be in the future? what to do next in my life? wuhuuuu.... I often think about my future...im curious how would it look like..at present i go to secondary school and im in the fifth form...so it is obvious that i would like to pass the examination for the secondary school certificate...i was thinking about traveling..i have often dreamed of taking a trip round the world..ngee :D ...zzzzzz...i wont think too much about it and now the most important thing is  MY EDUCATION! :) ..after graduating from high school, i plan to attend a three year university followed by a three year graduate school and major in tourism and travel management :) with this major i hope to eventually obtain a phD  in the field ..amen ♥ i choose to take the field for several reasons..hmm..however, if that plan doesn’t fall into place my backup career will be sports teacher :) ..if i happen to encounter difficulties along my career path, i'll not give up...challenges along the way are expected, and looked at as a way to only grow stronger... :) i feel that i am well equipped to achieve my dreams because of my positive attitude, determination, and will-power..by following through with these plans i'll have a successful, enjoyable life that will be rewarding in the long run... ♥

♥ I was born to be somebody :) ♥

i dont want to live the rest of my life thinking about u and dreaming of what might have been ...if u remeber me then i dont care if everyone else forgets :)

u can't waste time over missing something in the past...life changes, people grow up and people grow apart, and u accept that...yet u still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be afraid u'd never experience it again, afraid u've already lived it and already lost it...have u ever noticed that when people say u've changed it's just because u've stopped living ur life their way?..blablabla :)

so this is my life and i want u to know that i am both happy and sad and im still trying to figure out how that can be...

It's like this...u have to have the nicest legging jeans, or the cutest floral purse, or say the newest thing so that it catches on...u have to be skinny, u have to buy this, wear this, say that, be on his side, her side, be neutral, have white teeth, have straight teeth, ur hair can't be frizzy, and u can't wear that because it just doesn't 'work' anymore...u have to go to parties, be friends with everyone, trust no one, pose like this, smile like that, tilt your head this way, and put ur hand on your hip, because that's how it is... :)


I WAS BORN TO BE SOMEBODY ~!!