♥ i miss my late friend "J" :'( ♥

i dreamed of my late friend last night :'( who have left us forever 1 year ago...i really miss him "J" ... 16th March 2010 <---the date that i cant ever forget..he is a brave, honest, loyal friend, hard working, trustworthy, kind, polite, not arrogant...he is my friend..friendly person...miss u "J"..may his soul rest in peace  ♥ .. OMG! tears falling on my keyboard when i was writing this :'( do u know what it feels like to be left behind? ..losing everyone around u in such little time...i try not to worry since they're left in the past but it's hard going through life.............IMYSM!

think about my future :)

huh...since i get a lot of questions related to my future plans, i’ll go ahead and share them...for people who know me well, this certainly isn’t a secret, but others may find some of it surprising..i believe that everybody has some plans for his or her future...this future may be a distant one or a short one, for example: the next day..huh...but it cannot be denied that we plan very often...the plans for the future are often connected with dreams...dreams of better life, more interesting work or happy family...whoaa :) sometimes they function as an escape from the grey reality...i very often think about my future: what will happen to me? who would i like to be in the future? what to do next in my life? wuhuuuu.... I often think about my future...im curious how would it look like..at present i go to secondary school and im in the fifth form...so it is obvious that i would like to pass the examination for the secondary school certificate...i was thinking about traveling..i have often dreamed of taking a trip round the world..ngee :D ...zzzzzz...i wont think too much about it and now the most important thing is  MY EDUCATION! :) ..after graduating from high school, i plan to attend a three year university followed by a three year graduate school and major in tourism and travel management :) with this major i hope to eventually obtain a phD  in the field ..amen ♥ i choose to take the field for several reasons..hmm..however, if that plan doesn’t fall into place my backup career will be sports teacher :) ..if i happen to encounter difficulties along my career path, i'll not give up...challenges along the way are expected, and looked at as a way to only grow stronger... :) i feel that i am well equipped to achieve my dreams because of my positive attitude, determination, and will-power..by following through with these plans i'll have a successful, enjoyable life that will be rewarding in the long run... ♥

♥ I was born to be somebody :) ♥

i dont want to live the rest of my life thinking about u and dreaming of what might have been ...if u remeber me then i dont care if everyone else forgets :)

u can't waste time over missing something in the past...life changes, people grow up and people grow apart, and u accept that...yet u still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be afraid u'd never experience it again, afraid u've already lived it and already lost it...have u ever noticed that when people say u've changed it's just because u've stopped living ur life their way?..blablabla :)

so this is my life and i want u to know that i am both happy and sad and im still trying to figure out how that can be...

It's like this...u have to have the nicest legging jeans, or the cutest floral purse, or say the newest thing so that it catches on...u have to be skinny, u have to buy this, wear this, say that, be on his side, her side, be neutral, have white teeth, have straight teeth, ur hair can't be frizzy, and u can't wear that because it just doesn't 'work' anymore...u have to go to parties, be friends with everyone, trust no one, pose like this, smile like that, tilt your head this way, and put ur hand on your hip, because that's how it is... :)


I WAS BORN TO BE SOMEBODY ~!!

♥ Wish You Were Here :') ♥

 i wish you were here just to dry all my tears, calm all my fears...i often think of the joys u bring and notice that truly u are my everything..i would never realized i would miss you so :( i miss u so much it seems u're near,..I WISH U WERE HERE :'(